Saturday, May 31

tho its not easy


Monday, May 26


All Praise be to Allaah

 We all want good things to happen in our lives, but too often we want it now...not later. When it doesn't happen that way, we are tempted to ask, "When, Allaah, when?" Most of us need to grow in the area of trusting Allaah instead of focusing on the "when" question. If you're missing Happiness and peace, you're not trusting Allaah. If your mind feels worn out all the time, you're not trusting Allaah.

 Sometimes knowing everything can be uncomfortable and can even hurt you. I spent a large part of my life being impatient, frustrated and disappointed because there were things I didn't know. Allaah had to teach me to leave things alone and quit feeling that I needed to know everything. I finally learned to trust the One who knows all things and accept that some questions may never be answered. We prove that we trust Allaah when we refuse to worry.

 Allaah wants us to live by discernment—revelation knowledge, not head knowledge. It's difficult to exercise discernment if you're always trying to figure out everything. But when you're willing to say, "Allaah, I can't figure this out, so I'm going to trust You to give me revelation that will set me free," then you can be comfortable in spite of not knowing. Trusting Allaah often requires not knowing how He is going to accomplish what needs to be done and not knowing when He will do it. We often say Allaah is never late, but generally He isn't early either. Why? Because He uses times of waiting to stretch our faith in Him and to bring about change and growth in our lives.

• Wait With Patience

 We spend a lot of time in our lives waiting because change is a process. Many people want change, but they don't want to go through the waiting process. But the truth is, waiting is a given—we are going to wait. The question is, are we going to wait the wrong or right way? If we wait the wrong way, we'll be miserable; but if we decide to wait Allaah's way, we can become patient and enjoy the wait. It takes practice, but as we let Allaah help us in each situation, we develop patience, which is one of the most important as Muslim virtues.

 Patience is a fruit of the Spirit (see Al Baqarah 153). It's developed only under trial, so we must not run from difficult situations.

 '' O ye who believe! Persevere in patience and constancy; vie in such perseverance; strengthen each other; and fear Allah; that ye may prosper.'' [Al Maidah 200]

 As we develop patience, the Quran says we finally feel completely satisfied—lacking nothing. Even our relationship with Allaah involves progressive changes. We learn to trust Allaah by going through many experiences that require trust. By seeing Allaah's faithfulness over and over, we let go of trusting ourselves, and gradually we place our trust in Him.

Looking at it like this, it is easy to see how timing plays an important part in learning to trust Him. If He did everything we asked for immediately, we would never grow and develop. Timing and trust work side by side.

I was browsing to the internet and i found this short nasihat. It is very accurate and somehow it relates to what i feel right now

source ; The Real Beauty Of Islam

Wednesday, May 21

The kind of girl i am

Bebel malam

So hi, I have something to share. Did this 'hmm aku pun nak jugak life macam dia' ever crossed your mind while you were looking at someone's photo who is prettier, wealthier and have a nice life to live in? Dont lie to me bcs everyone does that, everyone has this unhealthy feeling of ungratefulness.

Seeing someone with all of these perfections (pretty, skinny, wealthy, smart, famous) will definitely make you feel that 'i have nothing to be proud of, i'm a useless crap, i hate my life' kind of depression. we have what we need but we seem to want more and more from God kan? but we cant have it all at once. 

If you really think money can make your life a lot happier, then work your ass off dont just laze around do nothing and expect money to fall from the sky to your front door. If you really think being pretty can make your life a whole lot better then go and meet any beauty specialist. If you think having the perfect body can make you happy then workout go to gym and get sweaty! 

You just dont sit there and expect God will grant you everything you asked kan?

And if you really think having a sweet and romantic husband would make your life beautiful, then go find one. pergi ajensi cari jodoh or what ever name it has.

But for just one moment, think. 

Kenapa Tuhan tak provide all of these? bcs its temporary and maybe bcs if He gave you these nikmat, you will find yourself lost in this dunya where all you wanted was just fame, money and beauty.

Plus, if lah your boyfriend or your husband tak sweet macam those guys on tumblr, dont ask him to fake himself, pretending to be sweet and all just to please you. thats just wrong. instead, why dont YOU be the one who does the romantic sweet kind of stuff to your partner thats the least you can do. He will definitely appreciate you more. stop being materialistic, asking him this and that dah macam mesin atm bcs he's not. 

Appreciate what you have, work for the things you need and strive for a better life. You dont have to be rich to be happy pun. true happiness is when you stop being ungrateful and learn to love everything and everyone around you.

p/s: this is a note to self, doesnt relate to anyone.

Saturday, May 3

An everlasting story

You know that kind of feeling where you only think of one person and that person appears in your mind like every second every minute but you don't feel like its bothering you at all because you love it when that person runs through your mind and that makes you smile.

You will never get tired of this person even if he hurts you and you will say things like 'enough, i'm tired of this' when actually you don't. you never give up on him because you know even you're having those fights, arguments or misunderstanding you still want him in your life, you still want him to be apart of you, you still want to love him regardless of what he does and how hurtful he is sometimes because you know he's a keeper and he is truly one in a gazillion.

No one, i repeat no one can ever replace his spot in my heart because he's the only guy who always there to help me through every shits in life and always listen to stuffs like 'my day went like this..' or 'you tahu tak...' or 'masa kecik-kecik dulu kan....' without ever getting tired. he lifted me up on my downfalls and when everybody shut me out, he's the only person who says something like I will never be his last option and i'm one of his ultimate priorities.

He's the one who keeps me happy and the one who always tries his best to be all that i need. i know we may have fought couple of times about 'why wont you publicize your love towards me on your social network?' kind of stuffs, but i do know now, how you showed and emphasize your love. i was indeed clingy and demanding (sometimes ego. okay all the time) but you held on to me for two years; you accept all of my imperfections perfectly.

Loving you is really all that's on my mind and i can't help but to think about it day and night.

I always want to remind you of how much i love you and how much i need you in my life. i love you Faisal Hadi even some situations are hard to handle and some are hurtful but as long as i have you i am stronger to face any possibilities. you make me happy even when everything falls apart and being yours is an honor. i am fully content and grateful to be apart of your life.

I miss you sayang, always 

Loving you so dearly,
Adwyh, your sayang, your future